i am blogging about the controversial sex scandal involving hayden kho and some famous personalities. This is just 1 of the thousands of opinions written on random blogs throughout the Local and some foreign blogosphere. Yes, this one is so damn famous that everyone who happens to know how to communicate knows about this stuff. Poor and rich, religious and the not-so, drug-free or dependents, everyone of em just happen to know about this one.

So what’s my take on this? Do i feel enraged about how immoral our society is becoming? Do I feel jealous why hayden got loads of babes while I got 0? Am i happy because i saw the video and somehow my desires got the best of me? Do i feel pity about the girls in the video? These are just some the questions we need to ask ourselves. For a minute you try to be honest and come up with a conclusion or reflect on the lessons you’ve learned regarding this issue.

ok so first thing. let me list some of the things i learned. some of my list are quite senseless thought but i just need to list it anyway.

1. make sure you know how hide personal files in your pc. luckily i’m an IT guy so this shouldn’t be a problem.
2. if you are a female, think twice before engaging in this act while you are not married. (if you are looking for a trustworthy male, just let me know. LOL )
3. earthly desires almost always gets to majority of human beings.
4. pre-marital sex is rampant in this *very* catholicized country.
5. I was correct when i thought before that the faces i see on tv are doing these things despite how good they project to be.
6. Humans are so damn interested in news events like this. I cant count how many times i was asked if i have a link for it to download. (Luckily, i dont ask anyone coz i have my way around the internet)
7. People who degrades sexual acts without proper reason are purely idiots.

thats the end of my list coz my brain paused for a while and i cant think of some better ideas.

Let me continue though, so whats my reaction on this one? We’ll first i wish i was hayden, LOL (purely kidding here!). Seriously, i hope i might NOT sound like a nagging hypocrite, but i really felt that we are approaching at a point where almost everyone of us is so influenced by what we see on TV that it clouds our way of thinking. Consider premarital sex, as a christian do you think its bad? Yes i do. Now, try to turn on your TV during afternoon and you will see teens or young adults, NOT YET MARRIED, filmed on the act of doing such things. So this is just one of the triggers. Now these scenes coupled by our biological needs and the result will be what? go figure. So why I am writing this? It’s because of  this(scandal) expose, I hope im wrong though, God knows how many more young ones did engage in premarital sex, they can easily fool themselves and say that if they(famouse ones) have done that then what’s the reason we cant. I honestly think that the media made it worst. fuck off media. oops. I didn’t mean that. I meant the tv media.

On the issue of whose the victim, i don’t think any of those caught on the videos are victims. The video clearly shows that the persons involve were enjoying it so its really unfair to label them as victims. So are there no victims? well in my opinion the victims are the viewers, the not-so-smart viewers, the young ones who cant think deep yet. Why? ready my previous paragraph. The ones who watched this video cant help themselves but be tempted and you and I know what that kind of temptation mean. I was tempted. Luckily im single and stuffs like this is not in my to-do list at least at present so im spared. phew. How about the ones who are in a relationship? The partners who keep thinking should we do this or should we wait for marriage? Do you honestly think by watching this films it will not add up to their pressure? Just think and rethink my friend.

woah. this one is getting long and im quite lazy to proofread my posts so expect major errors in this one. this is just a heads up though.

what about you? yes you, the one who is reading this. I might have offended you but it doesn’t matter. Your choice is alright to me as long as it doesn’t bother anyone. if you have engage in this acts, we’ll thats cool, if not then that’s cool too, at the end of the day we believe in different things and we live on what we believe.

I just wrote this one down so that maybe, just maybe someone out there might be questioning his conscience should I do this or should I not, and when he/she by twist of fate happen to read this it will help him/her decide the right thing to do.

My advice is just read the bible and pray and if that doesn’t help(I doubt it) remember God made weed to grow abundantly in earth now its up to you to use it right.

yup2.. im on facebook now. After long years of refraining from joining any social networking or community sites I finally decided to signup and try out facebook. I didnt signup because i want to use those craps like connected with everyone and find someone crap, I just want to try out the now fastly growing facebook api. Facebook offers freedom for developers to build apps inside their facebook flatform. You have to let yourself be familiar with how facebook works, the modules, sections etc and most importantly how facebook works. In addition to their api, they have developed some facebook exclusive tags know as fbml and their javascript safe counterpart the fbjs which means facebook markup language and facebook javascript respectively. There are some couple others but just more advance but ill not go in to that.

Anyways, i have finished my first app and its just a test one. I hosted the app in this same blog site. I used php as my backend. After a day or two trying to learn the do’s and dont’s I finally publish my first app on beta stage. Its nothing special. Its just a Jacknpoy applicaiton which let you and your friends play. if you want to try out and give a comment in it and eventually find out that it suck you can login to your facebook account then point your browser in this url http://apps.facebook.com/jacknpoy/. I just hope you’ll like it but you’ll probably not. I suck at developing interesting ideas thats why my life is an open source boredom.

Anyways, what surprising is that i found out that engaging in friends online is not that bad. You can get to check whats the other guy on the end of a terminal is thinking/doing and its pretty interesting. As well as i can also share how boring and how a routine my life is  and no one cares. Its just like a fun thing to do. I never thought sharing this bullshits in life would be this fun. Now i dont wonder anymore why more and more users are getting into social networking sites. Facebook is just one of them and probably the biggest and fastest rising.

All in all i was not disappointed signing up on facebook. What turned out to be an application development practice turned out to be a fun thing I newly discovered here in the internet. Mind you, I never let that friendster craze under my skin before but this facebook thing. this is the real deal. If something can put a smile on ones face then thats amazing and i certainly would consider facebook as one.

And oh, the word greet. Its nothing, ahh… butt ahh.. umm.. yeah oh i remembered. tomorrow is the day. Yes tomorrow is my birth*UC*KINGday. and guess what? nahh.. theres nothing for you to guess. same fucking crap. Birthday is just a mark on a calendar year to remind you that your days are almost over. Oh gosh, i hope i am not writing my own premonition or else i could easily appear on TV as the man having predicted his destiny.

So what the heck could be new tomorrow, i mean certainly nothing. Being drunk and stoned for the night aint new to me. Just incase you are late on the news, i’m a beer lover. and thats all i have and thats all i ever be. If drinking wont kill me her memories will… oh sheyt.. that was a line from a song. Shouldn’t be included here but its already written and my hand wont allow me for so much backspacing and im too lazy to move the mouse and highlight it.

What will I expect on my birthday? i expect a gift from sanTa and tell him to start giving Christmas gifts this early to accommodate the ever growing population. Have you noticed that in the old times Santa can manage to give gifts only during Decembers as he is still fast enough and there were not as many people back then But now poor santa is already old and he is not as fast and as youthful as ever and that our population ballooned. So I guess a little advice for santa wouldnt hurt his ire as i think i am reasonable enough for doing such actions. Oh sheyt, i noticed i was off topic for the last sentences, why the hell is this happening is this because im currently stoned. Nah, i havent puffed one yet.
But seriously, what would i want to happen on my birthday. Well(***thinking hard***), seriously… Nothing. Why would i want something to happen right? Who in their right mind would want that. LOL.
Though inspite of all I wanna thank God for letting me live until this time though i am still young but nah, i just want to thank God for allowing me to live upto this very day and I just hope i will have more days ahead of me and that my health wont betray me and hopefully i can still skate, write some kick-ass codes, drink beer and just those 3 is enough. God has already given me so much than i expected at this young age. He gave me more than enough and I cant thank him more.

ok on a lighter side, seriously im expecting some friends coming over and maybe we can share on a little food that we will probably prepare and then get drunk, laugh unreasonably, talk some serious and at the sametime senseless things. Maybe smoke some just to triple the happiness. Im just hoping everyone will have a great time and all will be cool. My birthday is just another shating session. Nothing special about it coz im myself am not special. Well i do look like a special child but who cares. (I do!)

Do i have wishes? sure i do. Whats my wish? Well 1 is… oh wait… can i mention what everyone mentions during their birthday wish or am I just watching too much tv? ok so they say, Long Life, Good health and Happiness. I swear i’ve heard these statements countless times during birthdays. Yeah well whats mine? hmm.. damn im not in my creative self right now that i cant think of something unique for my wish. LoL. Is wishing something like that? Nah.. seriously my wish is that for myself to courageously start a business and manage it well and make it a huge success (am I hearing berkshire hathaway type here??). I guess sometimes im indulging myself on too many things that i always end up just watching movie on my laptop whole day. In summary, i have lots of plans but they are all just plans and never enacted on it. We’ll at least i know to construct a plan I just dont know how to start to realize my plans.

oops i guess i have written enough sentences already and so its time to hit the save button!

till next time guys. I hope you’ll read my blog consistently so that ill be encourage to write more and more and more. LOL!

***WITH PICS AND VIDEOS***
first of all i want to congratulate my friend Sandi for finally making it to the finish line. “Human najud sho!” As we always say it. .

I sometimes kinda wished that i could graduate someday too but It seems its too elusive for me. Well there is work, there is the boredom of listening again to professors, you name it i just have many, many reasons not to finish college. But anyways, this post not about the graduation but its about what happened after the graduation. Yeah you heard it right, just moments after sandi sang their graduation song…

Sandi did really treat us big time. First we went to a restaurant at obrero, which for some reason i cant remember its name at this very moment, and we ate till we were full. The food there was good, i ordered spare ribs and some chicharong bulaklak. Everything was great.

Then afterwards, we finally decide to head to our final destination At a KTV bar named “Yantis”. It’s my second time here and the room was great. What else can i say, the beer was ice cold and it was great. The place is kinda expensive and not really for commoners. How do you beat a Php50 per bottle of stallion?? Nonetheless everyone had a great time. Each one of us unmindingly sang our hearts out. We’ll i know im always out of tune but with the help of the spirit of redhorse it doesnt matter anymore.

I dont have the proper combination of words to describe the night but just think of something real fun and multiply its fun by 100 and thats the amount of fun we guys had that night.

Here are some of the pics taken that night. Courtesy of Irvin Lee Eduliantes

 this shot was taken by the waitress kinda blurry because of her unsteady hand while shooting. From left to Right Irvin, Francis “Kreeehaaa”, Marco (Me), Sandi (the fresh graduate), and Domskie.

oh oh… not so serious folks… i dont have the dough to build my own skatepark ya dig. The title is kind of an overstatement.

We’ll really its just a small concrete pathway leading to our terrace that we decided to build this summer. Just a really2 simple one. Nothing fancy.

Then I said to myself that i can probably utilize this as a mini skatepark for myself. Well the idea is actuall great as it was really my dream to skate on the comfort of my home. It will be great as i will not get to travel far just to skate. Also on a brighter note, this will serve as my excercise, you know i need to keep my body active and healthy. I need my heart to be working out quite often.

Gladly it all turned out ok. We asked our neighbor(Manong Albar) who is an all around construction guy to build the pathway for us and also i asked him to build me a box, ledge i can use as an obstacle for my skateboarding. Well i can use it for my simple grind tricks and maybe just maybe try out more advance stuffs. Hopefully, with God’s aid, i wont get injured while skating here in our home.

I actually skated a little bit yesterday just to get a feel of the new ledge and concrete and it was fun. Today i think i wont skate as a sign of respect to them religious Catholics. Tommorow black saturday, i think i can already warm up and try some tricks I used to do before. On Sunday, Happy Easter to all of you. To all those folks that i have wronged with, my deepest apology. I hope you guys would forgive me and just forget it afterall its time for forgiveness. And to all those who think that they deserve me an apology. No problem. Dont say It. I forgive you guys.

Ok so overall Im just Glad on this summer.

cheers.

Some pics i have taken on my self-labeled “skatepark”.

Construction:

Finished product

I googled about it and checked whether someone in the www has already managed to break it. Alas! to my surprise there is still none. Wow! So I was challenged. But i was pessimistic and I just said to myself that there is no way i can decrypt it. I dont even know how that shit is made up. I dont know the basics behind its encryption algorithm. There was just no chance! 

So even with that, I still proceeded. I fired up some codes and test and test. Did some googling and more research about it and tried some other ideas. After an hour or 2. I think im nearing and nearing the solution. Well atleast thats what i think of.

and the suddenly… after some tweaks on my code and I lost track of how many times i switched between conditions and loops just to make my code efficient… It seemed to work. I tested it with my name. MD5ed “marco” which yielded f5888d0bb58d611107e11f7cbc41c97a. Then again I run this in my algorithm and surprisingly it echoed “marco”. Wow! was it just a fluke? then I tried another one. “Avril Folle” (just some random words i thought of) MD5ed it again and then ran the result with my Algorithm. Alas i have solved it. Wow!

So at April 1, 2009 11:13am I had officially solved the md5 hash which was formerly unbreakable.

this is a major breakthrough!  I cant wait what the programming community can say about this. I wrote the script using PHP.
so if you want to see the code live in action. click here and paste the md5 hash in the textbox has to have it decrypted.

click here to view the source code.

can you feel it lately?

well i do… in fact it is under my skin.

i cant seem to concentrate working during 11am-5pm. As you all know im working in my bedroom, a 2 window bedroom. Yes it really is kinda small. Minute in a sense, but im comfortable about its size. However, what bothers me lately is the excessive summer heat. I know, i hear you shouting Global warming out there! This is just the effects, not too long ago i can remember i handle summer quite well without shedding those excess sweat. But recently, It seems i cant anymore. Its possible maybe since im not as young as before or also might be a case of wear and tear. But whatever that reason is i came up to a conclusion that i need to do something to at least negate the effects of summer and I can continue working without any problem.

So last saturday during lunch, i talked to my Mama and asked her whether its a good idea to have my room airconditioned and she said yes to that idea. In fact She said it really is needed since most offices are aircondtioned especially ones with computers and stuffs. Luckily since my bedroom is my office its like hitting 2 birds with one stone. I have my working area air cooled and at the same time my sleeping area. So what can you say. I think its not a bad decision to finally succumb to the natures heat.

Though there are some cons that im really thinking lately especially after the A/C was installed. First is its effects to the nature. One aircon installed means another contributing factor to global warming. Check this blog out to read about it. Ok and i promise to just turn it on when i cant stand the heat anymore. Ill have it on for a maximum of 10hours a day only. So you can see im a trying hard environmentalist down here. Second problem is the electric bill. Will it add up atleast P500 a month? I hope not coz i only bought a small one with .5HP. The one who installed my A/C said that since my room is so small it is more than enough to cool it and even channelling the cooled air to the adjacent room would be an option. Third is health risk. Ive heard some bad things about A/C causing one to have colds or cough. But i havent really had some extensive readings about it yet. soon i’ll found out. 4th one is maintenance. I really hate to do it. like time to time im  gonna clean the filters and so on and so forth. I just dont. I just hope it will be just at most a once a month thing to do. And someother crazy ideas that is not worth thinking of but i dont have any clue why it does reach my head.

So whatever those risks are, i should deal with them now and take good action. Coz the aircon is now at my back running and making my room a little refrigerator. We bought it at Metro Plaza. Brand is carrier. It cost us almost $300 but i think its worth it. It cools my room rapidly and has a decent temperature. It has stuffs that i basically need like a remote control, having a shutdown timer etc. It brags it has 5 type filter which i dont have any idea what is that about.

So that’s just basically about it.

I know I shouldnt have bought this thing and just live with the heat but i think my body just had too much. My pores are kinda yelling at me like “hey asshole can you even do something to ease our burden here”. In short I cant tolerate the summers heat no more at least while doing my work.

this author is sick.

damn, why did it happen at this time when i feel like I really want to go out and have fun coz its “Araw ng Dabaw”.

Anyways, I had felt this condition for sometime already. I just neglected it thinking it was just maybe due to stress and perhaps some pressure towards work and many more unwanted feelings and problems that just happens like it is to each one of us. I am talking about my heart, yes my damn heart. I never thought i had a weak one. Well considering i havent exercised lately since i last ride my skateboard around early January. Too bad, i should have.

There was a time when i was into jogging on early mornings i was quite surprised why my heart seems to explode when in fact i ran only a few meters. I said to myself maybe it was just due to the fact that i haven’t been into an extraneous exercise on the same level recently and also maybe it was because i occasionally smoke and drink but when that happens, i drink and smoke like there is no tomorrow (what a shame!). Though there were some thoughts that lingered in my mind that maybe something is wrong with my heart, but it never did occur to me that it will worsen in the immediate future. Damn i was wrong!

So how did i knew?

It was just last tuesday, when i felt dizzy and felt that my chest have been pushed down by some weight (though not really on the extreme), I also have trouble breathing. It was maybe past 6pm when me and my girlfriend mimi went to the dining table to eat that i felt really dizzy and decided not to continue and head to the sala and lie on the floor and maybe hope the condition eases. And then i told my mama about it and she said maybe it was just “panuhot” but my gut tells me otherwise. I insisted not to go to the hospital because i was very afraid that the doctor might say “he is a candidate for open heart surgery!” Shhhyyyt! give me a shotgun now and im gonna blew up my own head! well still they convinced me to go to checkup and i was really terrified of the thought. And they accompanied me at SPC, My mama, papa and my gf mimi. Ma and mimi went with me inside the ER and then i was under check up and the doctor said that i will undergo ECG. what the hell is that? Am i gonna be put inside some machines and have my heart run thru a computer. Thank God that wasnt the case, it was just some devices clip to your chest and some parts of your body and it will produce lines about your heartbeat. Hell i have no idea what is that.

So afterwards, the doctor told me and my mama that im not gonna be on a heart attack! that it seemed normal. phew! I was relieved. The doctor said that it MAYBE a muscle congestion. which probably is a lighter case. im kinda relieved. so we went home and  bought the medicine and i took em and now im slowly recovering. I have consumed all my meds and i hope my case would not worsen. I will stay away for awhile on some activities that might cause stress and perhaps stop those late night gimmicks. Cut the cancer sticks, the booze. In short my life will be miserable for sometime but what can I do.

and oh before i forgot, that incident might have triggered by what I have been doing the night before. I was drinking with my friends Morn, Sandi, Irvin till 5am take note 5am! When i arrived home my mama was already preparing breakfast. I told you, when i drink I drink like there is no tomorrow.

So just a head up guys, you might be surprised I will not be on a drinking session for a long while. Since currently, i can still feel that there is somehting not right with my heart. My mom told me we should go to a specialist and i didnt agree I just said that its just ok if I just took some timeout and let my heart recover. something like sleep early for a month and just read some good books and watch movies, stress-free!. Afterall i know that whatever happens, It will all be God’s will.

and p.s. i heard red wine is good for the heart  <— err! “i didn’t type this one, My Alter Ego did!”

holly molly!… i was just amazed today knowing that i break again into top 15 in the scriptlance ranking… The last time I remembered some friends told me why I lost my ranking. Then i told them it was because i wasnt as active recently as i was before since im in a rest mode. But then again this past weeks, many clients went on my way and requested projects to be done and so I was up for the challenge and there it Go. Gladly i finished the projects with the help and grace of the almighty God. Thanks God for giving me the courage to never back down on the projects though it seemed impossible for me to do them!

I would like to thank also the buyers who never doubted my skills and dedication. Also to the scriptlance staff, Rene for having this great website. Also for all those who never believed me you guys made me work extra hard. Also i would like to thank the competition in Scriptlance, you guys make me outbid you everytime you outbid me on some project i love to do.

But really, this kind of things really puts icing on the cake. its really nice to know that your hardwork is showing.  Damn this doesnt gets any sweeter. I feel like celebrating to commemorate something like this. The last time i felt on top was i think it was 1st year highschool but i only finished second. But today, darn i feel on top eventhough its only number 15. With all other great programmers out there i feel really great even just breaking into top 20. This really is another milestone in my career.

I even told a friend that seems almost all of the users on top are working as a team under one username and we both agreed. But let me tell you, i feel i have the biggest team of em all. you know why? because i have someone who helps me when i feel i cant take the problem anymore. and i bet he is the best programmer one will ever have. How can he program the world or the universe if he wasn’t ?.

here is the actual screenshot that caught me off guard and eased my lower backed pain.